oohhdanggg

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 19:29:40 GMT

JESUS I HAVEN'T POSTED IN A WHILEEEE

I hope you all had a good Christmas/Kwanzaa/cookie season/ whatever you celebrate: I'm going to see the exhibit of harry potter set pieces in Boston soon and I'm SO EXCITED DKJSHDJJSDHSKDSDSHD.

I can't believe it's the end of the year! Ironically my friend canceled our plans for tonight this morning (after blowing me off all week) so i'm probably staying in tonight :) I've decided not to be angry though, because overall anger is unproductive and I'd rather be happy.
FLIGHT OF THE CONCHORDS SEASON 2 ARRIVED, god I love those men. They seriously make me so happy c:

this week I've been gorging myself on chocolate and being unproductive (we were supposed to run for track over break, HA) and I'm not looking forward to returning to school on monday. Yep, that sums up my vacation.

I'm so out of shape, sabourin's gonna kill me lmfao<3

Writer's Block: BFFs

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 16:43:19 GMT

Who is your best friend and why she or he is so important to you?

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This is so appropriate for today, SEEING AS IT IS MY BEST FRIENDS BIRTHDAYY!
Let's seee

She is important to ME because she's totally awesome. I make weird faces at her and we both like cheese. She's talented and hilariouz, and we always have a great time together (okay once in person BUT STILL) Chebbz is a crazy rainbow colored minnesotan with great taste in music and art. We are the same person. I love her for more reasons than I can count.

IN CONCLUSION, HAPPY SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET SIXTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN SHEL!!!!!!
<3333333333 cant wait to finish up your half-birthday/half-christmas package and send that bb out!

Writer's Block: Book review

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 20:41:31 GMT

What (if any) books would you ban from a high school library? Are there certain subjects that you feel are inappropriate for teenagers regardless of literary merit?

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OH MY GOD THIS QUESTION MAKES ME SO ANGRY. the fact that anyone would feel that it's NECESSARY to ban books from a high school makes me go into conniptions: if the books aren't banned in the real world then let the kids be exposed to it! It's not like they'll be sheltered from whatever is banned from the school library; there are these things called public libraries (gasp) that have books available for the public to read, therefore the kids could just get it from there. Obviously, this is within reasonable limits (no porn or stuff like that) but really? High school kids are trying to grow up and having adults ban them from certain books in no way helps or makes any sense at all.

fin before I get too angry :)

Writer's Block: Famous last words

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 22:18:03 GMT

If you were close to death, what would you choose for your last words? To whom would you want to say them?

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I would beckon my child to me, faintly whispering "Come closer, child," as I gesture with my withered hand. They would lean in close, listening to my trembling breath rise and fall like the ocean, as i yelled "GOTCHYER NOSE HAHAHHAHAHA"

ahah but really idk

hello

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 02:37:08 GMT

I had a lazylazy day today, which was a nice break from this week/saturday. However, it makes me depressed to think I have all my homework and a meet for SIX GAWDAMN HOURS tomorrow :(( whine whine whine i hate exercise
Oh, but I put new stuff up on DA! c: Jasmine and Flapjack(sketchdump) & Skadi

pointless pointless

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 01:13:29 GMT

"So I lay down against your back
Until we're both back in the Hospital
But now it's not the cancer ward
We're sleeping in the morgue"

I need to stop listening to depressing music, hahah TIME FOR BEIRUUUT<333

Holy shizzjxcbsdkjfh

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 21:50:56 GMT

So I went back to read the first real book i ever read, in first grade. A Wrinkle In Time, By Madeleine L'Engle. This prompted me to google search stars.

"After a low mass star like the Sun exhausts the supply of hydrogen in its core, there is no longer any source of heat to support the core against gravity. Hydrogen burning continues in a shell around the core and the star evolves into a red giant. When the Sun becomes a red giant, its atmosphere will envelope the Earth and our planet will be consumed in a fiery death.

Meanwhile, the core of the star collapses under gravity's pull until it reaches a high enough density to start burning helium to carbon. The helium burning phase will last about 100 million years, until the helium is exhausted in the core and the star becomes a red supergiant. At this stage, the Sun will have an outer envelope extending out towards Jupiter. During this brief phase of its existence, which lasts only a few tens of thousands of years, the Sun will lose mass in a powerful wind. Eventually, the Sun will lose all of the mass in its envelope and leave behind a hot core of carbon embedded in a nebula of expelled gas. Radiation from this hot core will ionize the nebula, producing a striking "planetary nebula", much like the nebulae seen around the remnants of other stars. The carbon core will eventually cool and become a white dwarf, the dense dim remnant of a once bright star."

This is just one random excerpt from the tons of stuff I suddenly read.
It makes me feel so small, and wonder so much. I have so many questions that I want to ask, but I honestly couldn't voice them all. Each and every one of us is here, yes, but what does that mean? there are so many billions of planets, and so many people here on earth. Nobody could ever get to know each and every person for the individual they are.
When we die, it's not such a big deal in the grand scheme of things. People will remember you for only so long, and then they will die as well. I'm not saying this as a depressing thing, it's just true. There will be millions and millions of people who live after me, just
as there were millions who lived before me. Our little worlds are so limited, and our worries and pains suddenly seem so trivial. I don't know the name of every person who ever touched the bit of land I live on. We're all such miniscule, weak things who can barely understand the most simple questions of the universe. Our life spans are nothing more than a blip in the countless march of time.

... who knew a "children's book" could set me off like this? Also, read A Wrinkle In Time, if you haven't. I may not know you, if you're reading this. I may never know you. That's okay.

I don't know if this unedited rant makes sense to anyone except me. But that's okay too.

it's called liveJOURNAL for a reason

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 01:34:14 GMT

Ugh, violin.
I've played it since I was five

I don't hate it.... but I don't love it
I feel guilty because I feel like I should love it and practice all the time and get good at it
for my dad I guess
But honestly, sitting here
and contemplating the fact that tomorrow I have violin lessons from 8:30-9:30 am
and then RIPYO from 9:30-12pm...
I'm feeling pretty unmotivated about it
I haven't practiced all summer, so obviously I'm not going to sound good

aaaand I'm overall not looking forward to having to wake up at 730 and then spending 5 hours playing violin :I
this is my saturday schedule from now, till basically the end of the school year.

wahhhhh hold me

DEPRESSING POST IS DEPRESSING/uplifting?

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 20:44:05 GMT

Well... summer's over.

All I can say is they are going to have to drag me back to school by the ankles.

Ugh, I had the best summer, from meeting my BEST FRAN EVER to taking a lifedrawing course, making doctor who cupcakes because I'm really cool, and a whole bunch of other junk with friends. I just don't want it to end ;_;
I'll always remember July 10th (it's still written on my desk chebbie)
I'll remember being scared and walking into lifedrawing for the first time
I'll remember eating pecan sticky bunz at 7 stars bakery and drinking iced coffee (newfavoriteplace<33)
I'll remember when it was too hot to move without pouring sweat (100 degreez + humidity, gotta love it!)
I'll remember kidnapping Meghan and having marshmallow wars...
And biking with JJ and Owdy down the bikepath in a tiara and hot pink scarf. (PINK BRIGADE)
I'll remember sitting on JJ's trampoline and talking with everyone
and going to the beach with Nicole and her momma and talking about childhood trauma ;)
I'll remember saying goodbye to my cousin when she left for California
I'll remember going to Hersheypark and my cousin throwing a fit
I"ll remember Richard and his amazing stories, his inspiration
I'll remember having fraps with val in her newport mansion
and the Lithuanian bakery.
I'll remember so many special things about so many great people, I love you all <3

thank you <3

Writer's Block: On the List

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 12:50:20 GMT

What is on your personal list of the Seven Wonders of the Modern World?

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to taste, to see, to smell, to touch, to hear, to feel pain and to love <33

i have too many places online to post annoying shit

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 04:01:03 GMT

this time next week will be the night after the first day of school :(

:(

:(

cross country tomorrow, SHOOOT ME PLEASE. ugh, I've been having such a good end of summer and now all this summer work and SCHOOL SHIT and cross country are KILLIN MAH BUZZZZZ. Haha, my lj posts are always depressing because I'm more in the mood to write down the stuff that sucks when I think about it, cause thinking about good things just makes me happy and I'm less inclined to talk bunches about them because I feel like I'm bragging (runonsentenceFAIL). I don't know, I'm trying to justify stupid behavior. So yeah, pretty boring. I better go to bed because I'm getting up at 8 tomorrow and running like ballz in the heat and it's already almost midnight. I still have to get so much crap ready for tomorrow, and I realized that I need to change my poor sleeping habits before school. oh yeah and get everything for school. RAMBLERAMBLE

guys I am so embarrassing somebody stop me

FUUCK THISSS (image heavy)

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 23:12:53 GMT

her nose is too short and ugh she's really annoying and I can't believe I'm even posting this. Probably gonna take it down if I remember later.

obnoxious as FUCK. but it was my warm up painting, whatever

idk, i just liked her dress

circus chick I drew after reading water for elephants (AMAZING BOOK<33) also please ignore the WHACK anatomy ;_;

shelby heintz mermaid right there!

her swallow necklace is bad ASSS

character I made up and put on one of chebbies haikus C: I like her

preview for the flapjack doodle page(s) to come :3

some of this might be colored later and put on DA but god just getting some of it uploaded and the colors fixed takes SO LONG. and I didn't even fix/post all of them :I

MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 19:25:03 GMT

So I don't remember where i saw the actual meme, but I do remember the general idea was to put up 10 pictures that you have saved to your computer, with no explanation unless people ask.

okay this is an ANIMATED image but it still counts

yes I realize this is 11 images, but the last 2 go together cause they just do. YEAH, just did this cause I'm procrastinating on my essays. and math packet. You know, the usual.

Love you chebbie :)

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 18:36:32 GMT

haha I have no clue, just two things I drew with the iscribble thing on an iPod touch. I think they're strangely charming. Posting it to cheer myself up because I've been reading The Jungle which is a super depressing (but really good) book.

P.S. my hair is eating me

~the ocean~

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 03:04:54 GMT

http://www.threadless.com/product/1921/Feathered_Fringe
so cool ahh
http://www.threadless.com/product/1810/Old_Man_and_the_Sea
really weird but awesome

there are so many crazy/amazing ones that are already sold out.

SORRY WE DIDN'T GET TO TALK TODAY BB, I love you.

today i went to the beach for the first time this year, and I'd forgotten how much I love the ocean. Just staring out into the blue-green distance for miles and miles on end, diving underneath a cresting wave and feeling the currents rippling around you makes you feel like you're part of something so beautiful <3 Sure RI is small, and has it's fair share of ridiculous people and the accent and such. I'll miss some of them. But I think the thing I'm going to miss the most is the ocean.

Shel did it, and I think it's time I did too

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 20:11:29 GMT

PEOPLE RANT:
It was probably around 8th grade that I realized i was cool for who I was, and not for the people I hung around with or the clothes i wore. A lot of what shel said is basically what I would say, so I think I'm going to just start of with, you guessed it, THE UNDERAGED DRINKING RANT.

my sistafrans:
Audra: I heart her, even though I just met her this year. She was the adorable new girl from NJ, and I hate to say that at first I didn't like her :/ BUT i got over that and we became BFFS <3 Being with her is nonstop fun. I am serious when I say there is not one moment where she's not giggling or saying something hilarious. HOWEVER, she has another group of friends ( the good girls gone bad), and when she hangs out with this group, she becomes her alter ego, which i like to call loosey goosey. Seriously, she drinks rum and mike's hard lemonade with them, goes to the beach and makes out with some kid, gets asked for a bj, sneaks out of her house, gets offered drugz (which, thank god, she refused) and a whole ton of bad things. Jocelyn and I are trying to shame her into stopping before she makes a really bad decision, which we'll hopefully work on when we go out to lunch this week.

Jocelyn: This woman is my track/cross country buddy, we met in sixth grade art and have talked of nothing but HP ever since. She is so goofy and smart, even though she doubts herself sometimes. I am glad that she is ~straightedge~ like me, so that we can try to whip audra back in shape together! In class we always write ghetto notes to eachother, or REALLY REALLY long and hilarious stories. Even though she's really funny, she's always up for a deep conversation about people, or life. She is also AMAZING at music, she learned the piano by ear and is first trumpet in the school band. Also she's learning cello, so I see her every morning when I'm tutoring n00bz in violin. She wants to go to Berkley and I know she will. One of my greatest memories of her is singing the harry potter theme in meows, and creating a two-part opera duet for "my bologna has a first name" on the track bus. goood times. (I'm trying to keep this kinda shortish. failing a bit, but whutevs)

Pho: Officially my best friend since birth, our fathers were biffles since 6th grade themselves. It was in our genes. There is almost no way to describe pho, but her laugh may be the greatest thing I've ever heard. I remember when we were really little, plotting to put bees in her sister's underwear drawer so that she would put them on and get stung in the butt! haha we were so crafty. Even though she lives pretty far away, we're still close and I love seeing her. She was my fellow obsessor over johnny depp, chocolate, and many other things. Always up for adventure, we used to hike through the forest with crackers, and she also loves harry potter. Final memories of her: sitting on the roof of a really old house in foster singing songs and making poses and weird faces when cars drove by, and lying in the middle of a field on a freezing february night and staring up at the stars.

Emma: Peener is one of those people who you can completely forget about/not call for months, and then pick it back up like you've been talking the whole time. She knows EVERYTHING about me, and I can tell her anything. We'll spend hours on the phone talking about deep things, and then she'll come over and sit on the floor making really gross noises and drooling at eachother. We've been really good friends since 3rd grade, and she was truly my only best friend for a long time. Although we don't have a bunch in common, it's still great to hang out with her and talk about whatever, freak people out and do random things. She was going to get a cat from the animal shelter, and told me about a three legged one there. I had a spasm and told her she HAD to get it. She did, but I never got to meet it because it fought with her other cat. Ah, life.

Nicole: Oh Nicole. During 4th and 5th grade, we were inseparable. Our teachers loved us, and called us (along with our other friend) the three musketeers. near the end of 5th grade, and during most of 6th grade she was really mean to me and I was devastated. I moved on, but eventually we became really good friends again, because we just couldn't avoid eachother. We love eachother because we're both super different- you can hardly get her to go on the computer at all, and she's just... devious, I guess is the word. Whether swimming with her, or sprawling out on her couch for hours watching doctah who and dying, she always makes me happy with her weird sense of humor and carefully hidden kindness.

Meghan: ahhh reginald. I can't count the number of times I made fun of her "love for running" and the fact that she is morbidly obese (aka a stick). also a hussy.At the beginning of the year, I talked with her because she was the only other non-ghetto person in my art class, but during track we became buddiez! She really is an amazing runner/ athlete; she's good at every sport she tries and she's smart too. I originally thought she was stuck up because she looks like a walking Hollister store, but honestly, she's the only person I know who can pull it off without looking like an ass, and she's also just as crazy/weird as I am. There aren't many words that can describe her, but she is my precious kitty forever<3

Shel: I saved dis baby for last because people STILL give me weird looks when I say I met her on the internet. LIVE A LITTLE, please. I never ever thought in a million years that I would meet someone this amazing online. But one mistake on livejournal proved me wrong<3 sometimes it makes me a little scared, thinking about how close we came to NEVER meeting. If I had just changed it from "interest" to "user" in the search bar, I don't even want to imagine what my life would be like. Meeting her for realz was so surreal, and I almost can't believe it happened even now. I remember bringing her up to my room, and just standing there, staring at her like... oh my god, she's real. Even after she'd been here for a few days, sometimes I would look over to make sure she was still there. Lying there in bed next to her and laughing until we couldn't breathe, and just sitting on the couch and doodling made me so happy. I can't explain how much I love her. We're exactly the same, and we figured out that we are going to the same college and starting up our own AMAZN animation studio, because it would be cruel to live life for even longer ~without~ her with me. We belong together bb<333

I'm sorry, but I'd feel like a failure if I stayed in this town for the rest of my life. I wanna get out and see the world! Not have parent/teacher confrences where I find out my kids are having my old teachers etcetc. People who do badly in school/ do drugs bother me too. Can't they see beyond what they want to do now? In the long run, isn't it much easier to do all the work when you're supposed to, instead of dropping out and getting a crappy job, or blowing off schoolwork to smoke? I have dreams, and I think I'd be devastated if I couldn't make them come true. Don't they care about themselves?ugh.

this was WAY too long and I don't really care if people read the whole thing either. it was just nice to ~ get it all out there

Happiness

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 02:52:33 GMT

Doctah Who marathon with nicole/ swimming in her nanas pool today

god, when david tennant winked I think I jizzed in my pants. SO SAD HE'S LEAVING ;_;
even sadder the scifi channel disappeared at my house sometime last year after I fell in love with ~the doctah~

blubberblubber

Night Owl

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 04:26:18 GMT

blaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh I can't fall asleep, my stomach's been bothering me for the past few days

Hungoutwithpeopleblahblahblah, saw hp again, didn't do any summer work for skool or practice for xcountry :I
Life drawing tonight was gewd, I had to draw the HARDEST EFFING PERSPECTIVE on this stool the teacher put ~overlapping~ our model. Seriously, it took way too long, and I didn't have time to finish the background. ahhh well. Got to know other children in the class, who all seem to have the same tendency of staying up ridiculously late for no reason at all. Oh man. I don't think this charcoal is ever going to wash out of my hands, hahah.

derrrr I have tons of art to show everybuddeh (and the stuff from when shel was here :3 <3395743589475935738957935) but the scanner's out in the shop, and I can't be bothered.

whoops

P.S. Shel, we gotta skype soooooon. ~*~*~*ILU BAYBEH~*~**~ but this separation is killing me

skjdhasjkdhjaskdh

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 16:27:41 GMT

I can't even explain the feeling when I saw Shelby jump out of her car. My life is complete, and these were honestly the best few days of my life. We didn't take a lot of pictures or anything until the last day, but I'm glad we didn't. Sometimes memories are better. It feels so weird not having her next to me :I 1300 miles is so far, ballz

obligatory double chin picture

I love you so much chebbie<3444

SHELBY

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 14:27:34 GMT

IS ARRIVING

THIS

AFTERNOON

hreuihrdsiufhsdifhidufh I can't even explain this excitement.

I

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 04:11:00 GMT

Just tried to draw my face in that loose, semirealistic artsy style that I'm supposed to be learning for THREE EFFING HOURS. how the hale did it get to be 12?

also how the hale am I supposed to get three self-portraits done by tomorrow when I can't even get ONE done in three hours. Screw this, srsly.

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 01:31:08 GMT

I don't even want to talk about what I wrote here before

(i hate people)

I feel left out again. yay.

Hershey

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 01:59:35 GMT

Just got back from Hersheypark! Agh it was so much fun. It was supposed to be terrible weather the second day, but it only rained for an hour and the rest of the day was beautiful. Ahhhh, blatant commercialism and chocolate, my two favorite things. I went with my Aunt, Uncle, Spencer, and my two cousins. ( We were there for four days)

Magic moment: the GIANT field surrounded by an old tiny wooden fence and trees and filled with fireflies<3

chebbie, I miss you so much my stomach hurts <333333333333333

I might update with pictures or something later.

14 DAYZ!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 22:07:14 GMT

I FINISHED MY JACKET YESTERDAY AND AUGH IT IS BEAUTIFUL
i'm so glad i worked really hard on it

;_; baw most wonderful birthday present ever (I'll post pictures later)

I am so excited for dinner tonight mfgfndg smoked salmon and squid ink pasta! (and a secret chocolate cake)
My friends brought in a unicorn cake for me today and it was wonderful. I had a nice day <3 (except for the exams 3: ughughughugh) their cards were so amazing I AM IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD

only two days left o school! (two days closer to me seeing shel<333333)

i love my momma and poppa

and you, chebbie! your emo posts remind me of me, because we are the same person. basically everything you say about yourself, I go HRNF DATS ME. don't let the world getchu down! can't wait to skypppeeeee

upDATE

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 22:18:34 GMT

fffffffff MADE IT INTO RIPYO http://www.ri-philharmonic.org/music-school/performance-education/youth-orchestra.html hahaha and here i thought I was getting a rejection letter.
AH I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO UPDATE YOU GUYS AWN.
1. it's the last week of skool, woooo
2. my birthday's on wednesday. woo.
3. i have the two worst exams on wednesday :( boo
4. WE ONLY HAVE HALF-DAYS <333
5. i am ALMOST finished with my jacket *crosses fingaz*
6. I dissected a frog today ;_;
7. I've done A BILLION drawings but i can't be bothered to scan them because it requires me to get off my ass and walk 35 feet

Why yes, I clean my room in this outfit regularly
okay now these are just embarassing.
MOVING ON,
<------ story of my life
gawd that shirt is awesome

Also, am I just stupid, or is it actually hard to sew the lining into the cuffs of a jacket? Because I have a feeling that I am going to feel like an idiot tomorrow when Mrs. Thayer explains how to do it.

P.S. hopefully seeing up soon sdjkfhdksfhsf